Thursday, March 20, 2008

WE ARE HERE!

"WE ARE HERE!"
I saw Horton Hears a Who with two of my daughters yesterday. I didn't expect to enjoy it as much as I did, or to be as affected by it as I was…am. Still. Today.
Here's the thing, I'm sitting in this dark theater between my twenty-two-year-old and twenty-year-old daughters, and I feel like weeping when the evil kangaroo character is holding a pink clover (looked more like a chrysanthemum to me but oh,well) above a boiling vat of oil. Atop the clover is a "speck" and within that speck is the teeny-tiny Who civilization named, appropriately, "Whoville." Now, lest you think me a complete sucker for scenes like that, let me assure you that I never, not for one minute, thought the Whos would be boiled alive.
[SPOILER ALERT! Like I really need to give one..]
I pretty much anticipated that there would be a last-minute rescue, and there was. The evil kangaroo's "child", Rudy, hopped out of her pouch and snatched the clover away from her just as it was about to fall into the oil. He held the clover up to his ear and exclaimed, "I can HEAR them! They're real!" Then he hopped over to Horton, who was being held down by angry mob of technicolor jungle creatures, and handed the clover over to Horton, who, I have to say, was a lot more forgiving of those other animals than I would have been. I would have been more inclined to give that nasty kangaroo lady a swift kick in the ass as opposed to offer her a cookie, but I guess that's just me.
[END OF SPOILER ALERT]
The thing that made me feel like weeping was the Whos trying so desperately to be heard by the others. No one would believe Horton when he insisted that the Whos were real and that they mattered, and that struck me to the core.
"WE ARE HERE!" the Whos chanted. "WE ARE HERE!"
Victims and survivors of sexual abuse are desperate to be heard, as well: "WE ARE HERE! DO YOU HEAR US? WE ARE HERE!"
Ashley, the protagonist in my book, Courage in Patience, is stunned when she tells her mother what has been happening to her-- six years of sexual abuse at the hands of her stepfather-- and her mother says, simply, "We're going to move on now. Go to your room."
Ashley struggles with rage and suicidal tendencies as it becomes clearer to her, as the story progresses, that her mother will not hear her. Like the Whos crying out, "WE ARE HERE!", Ashley cries out, "Why don't I matter to her?"
I thought about Ashley's courage as she learns to face the truth about her mother as I sat in that movie with my daughters. Horton's bravery and insistence that what he was protecting was real felt very much like Ashley's tenuous first steps to recovery that Courage in Patience depicts. There is something inside of her, a spark of strength, that insists that she hold her ground even when her own mother tells her that nothing really happened.
Today I stumbled upon a listing for the Texas Association Against Sexual Assault (TAASA). Its webpage reads, "TAASA is a non-profit educational and advocacy organization. As an agency, TAASA works to promote sexual assault awareness throughout the state of Texas. We provide training to rape crisis personnel, law enforcement, other service agencies, community groups, and schools on topical issues related to sexual assault as well as curriculum information for sexual assault trainings."
I thought, hey, my book, Courage in Patience, is a story written to give hope to survivors of abuse. I'll bet TAASA would like to know about it. So I set about looking through their list of network members. I found over FIFTY LISTINGS, in big towns, small towns, and in-between towns-- mostly crisis centers and safe houses for women and children who are being abused. And that's just the ones who have listed their contact information on TAASA's site.
The proliferation of member organizations on TAASA's site is at once a sad reflection on our society but a hopeful one, too, because people willing to protect and help victims get on the road to recovery are vital, if society is to ever conquer the scourge that is abuse.
TAASA, and organizations like Survivors in Action, an organization which is sponsoring a domestic violence database bill in California, does what few victims can do for themselves, in the beginning, which is to declare, for all the world to hear:
"WE ARE HERE. WE ARE HERE. WE ARE HERE."

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Saturday, March 15, 2008

Rejoicing in the journey

March 14, 2008
Cool moments since seeing last night that my book, Courage in Patience, a story of hope for those who have endured abuse, is now available for pre-order on Amazon:

1. My husband and I looking at each other and just bursting out laughing at the same time, and him saying, "I'm so proud of you."

2. One of my co-workers at school e-mailing me to tell me she had ordered it, and that she expected me to autograph it for her.

3. A few other people at school sending me e-mails to congratulate me, and a fellow teacher coming up to me after school and high-fiving me, telling me he was really proud of me…then said he hadn't ordered it yet because there weren't any "Used" copies to buy yet, har-de-har-har.

4. "YESSSSSSSS!" That was the reaction of one of the three employees behind the counter at the local post office, who have sold me roll after roll of stamps as I worked on compiling a mass mailing to send to high school and public libraries in all fifty states. Since my book is up for sale on Amazon now, I mailed the 2000 or so envelopes today! When I walked in and set the first three trays of envelopes on the counter, she looked across the room at me and said, "YESSSSSSSS!" and smiled as if it was HER book that those mailers are about. I showed my friends at the post office the Kunati Catalog. "Page 27," I said, proudly. "That's ME!"

I have had a lot of support on my journey, and with respect to this book, I'd like to say THANK YOU to the following:
Chris Crutcher graciously allowed me to integrate elements of his book, Ironman , into my novel.
My friends, Amelia, Matt, Donna Shelton, C. Wolf Forrest , Cheryl Kaye Tardif, and K.C. Whittington, read early drafts of Courage in Patience and told me what they thought of it.
Alexis Moore, President of Survivors in Action, read Courage in Patience and reviewed it. You can see several reviews on my webpage.
My agent, Rachel Dowen, has, from the first moment, been a strong advocate for my work and made thoughtful suggestions, even before she was my agent.
Holly Desimone, a very brave woman and founder of Holly's Fight for Justice, is the person who helped me set up my blog, and Marcella Chester, who allowed me to become part of the Re-Model 4 Life community.
My editor, James McKinnon, made insightful suggestions, and his critiques were spot-on.
Most of all I have to thank Daniel, Mandy, Alissa, Kristen, and Matt, for being my collective ROCK, and I also want to say thank you to my brother, Brett, who has been there and done that and lived to tell the story, too. Getting this far is an accomplishment for all of us, and I rejoice in the journey with all of you. I love you.

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Monday, March 10, 2008

Houston, We Have More Issues

Originally posted on Cruella Blog by Kate Smurthwaite. (crossposted with permission.)

Another message from the author of Ink and Indigo (cool knitting blog!) really had me reeling:

"I was both disgusted and unsurprised when I read your story and the story above. Two years ago, when walking from my grandmother's house to my sister's house on Christmas day. a bloke grabbed me, pushed me against a wall and pissed on my leg. I pushed him away and tried to run off, waving at a car driving close by that didn't appear to care. About five minutes later, I was grabbed by the same bloke, the same car still close, by the neck and asked why I "was trying not to fuck" him. I responded by screaming and kicking him in the bollocks. I ran off again, and ran to a phonebox, dialled 999 and explained someone was trying to rape me. They explained they were sending a car to "assess" the situation, during which time, the bloke started kicking in the glass in the phonebox and a people carrier full of men pulled up shouting "where's the Bitch?". Luckily, the police pulled up two seconds later and bundled me inside the van, where I lay on the floor crying in fear. Ten minutes later the police informed me they'd spoken to the offender and driver of the vehicle full of blokes that had been following me and told them to go home. Apparently I was stupid for believing it was attempted gang-rape, as the police said it was "drunk Pakis". The following morning, I rang the police to give a statement, only to find that there was no record of such an incident happening.

Now whenever people talk of people "crying rape" I point out the complete incompetence and institutional sexism of the police force.

I hope you're ok."

If anyone else has a story they would like to shame on the subject - anonymously or otherwise, I am happy to post them up and think it's important these stories are heard. You can email me through my blogger profile page.

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Sunday, March 09, 2008

Houston, We Are Not The Only Ones With A Problem!

Originally published on Cruella Blog by Kate Smurthwaite. (Crossposted with permission.)

Thanks very much to everyone who offered sympathy and advice about my abusive caller and troubles getting the police to take the matter seriously. The story was re-published on both the F-Word and Dollymix and I had some responses from those too. One email sent to the F-Word particularly struck me and, with permission from author Danielle Kemm (quote "You can use my name, I don't see why I should be ashamed or scared!"), here is what she said:

"I was just reading Kate's post about how she was harassed and the police didn't seem to care, and I think it's sad that this seems to be the norm, rather than the exception.

I had a drink spiked on a night out about 6 months ago, I knew as soon as I woke up that something was wrong, because I remember being relatively sober, and then a total blackout.

So my mum took me to the police station, I took the clothes that I had been wearing in a carrier bag, and didn't shower in case they needed samples or whatever. Turns out this was pure wishful thinking.

I asked for a test to confirm my drink had been spiked. I was then asked "Do you think anything *untoward* has happened?" I replied that I didn't know, as I couldn't remember a thing, as generally happens when your drink is spiked.

I was then told that I would "know" if anything had happened (depsite the fact that if you've been drugged you wouldn't be capable of resistance, so there would be no bruising anyway. Clearly even if you're drugged you're expected to kick and scream for it to be considered rape). And then she said that the purpose of drink spiking was rape (although she skirted around the actual word), basically implying that my drink hadn't been spiked, as I hadn't been raped (her assumption, maybe because I wasn't sobbing hysterically?)

Then she actually had the cheek to ask me if I drunk often, and how often I drunk!

She refused to do anything after this, not even file a report for my missing jacket and phone, which I imagine she might have done if I hadn't come in to waste her time on some silly suspicion.

She told me to go to the hospital if I "really thought" my drink had been spiked. Which I did, only to be told somewhat more sympathetically that it was against hospital policy to carry out the test, given the sheer number of requests (so clearly there is a problem, which the police seem determined to turn a blind eye to) and that they should have done a test there and then at the station.

Of course, by this time, my 12 hours were up, and it was pointless to go back a demand a test.

My mum later told me that after relating this story to some people she worked with, she was told of several personal experiences with drink spiking at the same nightclub, and apparently it happens on a weekly basis there. Something that you would assume would make the police more receptive to such complaints, rather than less.

I have since lost all trust and respect for our so called protectors of the law."

Thanks very much for sharing that with us Danielle, that is awful and I think it's really important that people hear about these things.

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Friday, March 07, 2008

CA DOMESTIC VIOLENCE PREVENTION AND RIGHT-TO-KNOW ACT OF 2008: CA Assembly Bill 1771


March 25, 2008 California has the opportunity to make history by passing CA AB 1771 The Domestic Violence Prevention and Right- to- Know -Act.

The opposition and the bills supporters met last week in San Francisco, CA to discuss the bill and address the concerns of those opposed. For those victimized by this heinous crime I can positively tell you that we have a voice, as Assemblywoman Fiona Ma is definitely on our team. She has fought vigorously to help us and will continue to do so.

As frustrated as I am with the opposition I believe that there is always hope! One person can make a difference and your letters of support will have a significant impact in regards to the outcome of this bill. Family members, friends and victims alike are encouraged to send in letters of support by fax to Assemblywoman Fiona Ma's office.

For those of you unable to personally attend the CA Assembly Public Safety Committee hearing on March 25th, you are welcome to fax your letters of support to be read at the hearing-your voice will be heard.

All of these letters really do make a difference! The voice of the victims, their family members and friends will have a dramatic impact at the hearing.

Thank you so much for your support!

Domestic Violence Right-to-Know Act Needs YOU

On behalf of my friend, Alexis Moore, President of Survivors in Action, I am posting this appeal. If you are a resident of California, please consider lending your voice to this important debate. Alexis' website is http://alexisamoore.blogspot.com

DOMESTIC VIOLENCE PREVENTION: Domestic Violence Prevention and Right-To-Know Act. CALIFORNIA WE NEED YOUR SUPPORT!
DOMESTIC VIOLENCE PREVENTION AND RIGHT-TO-KNOW ACT OF 2008 Assembly Bill 1771 (Ma) also known by many as the "Domestic violence database bill" has a hearing date!

March 25thCA AB 1771, will be presented before the California Assembly Public Safety Committee on March 25th! We need your support! Survivors of domestic violence, family members and friends please fax in your support letters today! A sample support letter is included herein. Please sign the letters and fax them in today! We can make a difference California!The present antiquated laws are doing little to prevent or deter domestic violence. AB 1771 will send a strong message to domestic abusers and to would-be abusers: domestic abuse will not be tolerated, and a history of violence will not go unnoticed by the general public. Further, this legislation will promote healthy relationships and help deter violence, which is essential to alleviating California’s rapidly growing prison populations.

If you are interested in more information or would like to have your support statements read at the hearing please contact me or
Catalina Hayes-BautistaLegislative AideOffice of Assemblywoman Fiona Ma
P:916-319-2012
F:916-319-2112